The Forever Endeavor

1 + 1 = 4

Baby! December 31, 2008

Filed under: 2nd Trimizzle — howiecockrill @ 8:55 pm

kate went into labor last night around midnight. little baby girl was born this morning at 6:08 am, New Years Eve. mother and baby are healthy & happy. trying out breastfeeding. we’ll post more soon. please feel free to send us well-wishes via email for now.  still in complete awe…..AMAZING!  words are incomplete.  thanks so much for all your support!


Silent Night

Filed under: 2nd Trimizzle — howiecockrill @ 12:28 am

Here’s a little belated xmas video to snack on.


Happy Anniversary! December 30, 2008

Filed under: 3rd Trimizzle — howiecockrill @ 9:35 pm

howienkateFour years ago yesterday, the Forever Endeavor officially began.

(Of course, unofficially the spark was ignited about 5 1/2 years ago.)

During the ceremony – our good friends played and sang “All I Want” by Joni Mitchell (lyrics below).

Last night those same friends called us & sang it for us again, this time on speaker phone.  It took me right back to the wedding ceremony, standing across from Kate, so happy.

I’m still so happy.

I love you Kate.  Happy 4th Anniversary.  Or as I prefer – Happy 1st Day of our 5th Year of Marriage.  I can’t wait to see how the rest of this adventure turns out!

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Traveling, traveling, traveling
Looking for something, what can it be
Oh I hate you some, I hate you some
I love you some
Oh I love you when I forget about me
I want to be strong I want to laugh along
I want to belong to the living
Alive, alive, I want to get up and jive
I want to wreck my stockings in some juke box dive
Do you want – do you want – do you want
To dance with me baby
Do you want to take a chance
On maybe finding some sweet romance with me baby
Well, come on

All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you too
All I really really want our love to do
Is to bring out the best in me and in you
I want to talk to you, I want to shampoo you
I want to renew you again and again
Applause, applause – life is our cause
When I think of your kisses
My mind see-saws
Do you see – do you see – do you see
How you hurt me baby
So I hurt you too
Then we both get so blue

I am on a lonely road and I am traveling
Looking for the key to set me free
Oh the jealousy, the greed is the unraveling
Its the unraveling
And it undoes all the joy that could be
I want to have fun, I want to shine like the sun
I want to be the one that you want to see
I want to knit you a sweater
Want to write you a love letter
I want to make you feel better
I want to make you feel free
Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm,
Want to make you feel free
I want to make you feel free


281 days pregnant

Filed under: 3rd Trimizzle — katecosby @ 4:39 pm


Crazy idea # 1:

Put a flash light down my pants and have Tangina from Poltergeist whisper “go to the light…” with increasing urgency.


“Paging Dr. Storque…” December 28, 2008

Filed under: 3rd Trimizzle — howiecockrill @ 1:19 pm

Paging Dr. StorqueKate’s mom Amy arrived on the 18th because we thought the baby might arrive around the 20th. Now its the 28th and still no baby. In the baby’s defense – the original due date was the 29th.

The past 10 days have been so weird. Its hard to explain – but each day sort of melts into the next.

Part of it is the holidays. But part of it is waking up each day and wondering if its the last day before we have a baby.

Kate says the good thing about all this anticipation is that it makes her less anxious about childbirth (but more anxious about the prospect of a never-ending pregnancy).

We have a lot of time these days for conjecture about why the baby is waiting.  Maybe she’s just running some errands.  Or maybe she’s waiting for:

  • me to hang the big mirror over the fireplace and/or complete other random house projects.
  • Kate’s mom & I to become closer (which we are) so we can be a better birth team.
  • Obama to announce his “Lollipop for Every Child” policy.

Who knows?  She’ll come when she wants – and in the meantime, the 3 of us are just biding our time.

We’ve walked at least 7 or 8 miles around Berkeley and Oakland in the past week on Kate’s “Forced Marches.”

We’ve read books, watched movies and TV shows, cooked, gone to parties, hosted parties, gone shopping, done yoga, danced and drank.

Yesterday we even went used car shopping and test drove a Forester and a Passat just to pass the time.

Today our plan is to hit the fire trails up in the Berkeley hills for some hearty up & down walking.

Think “Rambo” training montage meets “G.I. Jane,” except the Demi Moore from her pregnant Vanity Fair cover.

Or at least that was our plan.  Kate has collapsed under the weight of pancakes, eggs and bacon and is deep inside a gluten-free food coma.

Meanwhile, the question on all our minds remains…..

(click here!)


The Lazy Days of Early Labor December 26, 2008

Filed under: 3rd Trimizzle — katecosby @ 1:07 pm

Well. hmmm.

First let me say Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to all of you blog readers out there.  We had a full and lovely day here at the Cockrill/Cosby household. My mom came in the morning and we went for a brisk walk around the block. We found that Whole Foods was closed…but we stumbled upon a little dream house that was empty of inhabitants so were able to sneak peaks in the windows from the back yard. It’s a cottage with an open floor plan on the first floor and a huge grassy back yard. Fun! A quick look on the internet estimates that the house is worth somewhere in the 800’s…but hey we can dream right?

Around 3pm our friends (Annie, Eliz, Jeremy, Tanya) arrived with all the yummy holiday food to share. Ham, yams, potatoes, mac and cheese, kale, salad, apple crisp, this strange yet delicious thing called English Muffin Loaf. Hannah and Nick stopped by (acupuncture needles in tow) and we hung out some more while I did the pregnant hellraiser routine for the third time this week.   The needles were hung from my meridians with care. We drank wine and hung out with friends for a couple hours then went on another walk around the block.

It’s 11:50 pm and Howie and I have returned from our third walk of the day. This one was two miles of brisk walking to the college campus and back.

This week we’ve been watching for signs of labor closely. Twice now, I have had strong contractions for several hours and then they have gone away. The first time was Tuesday evening from 1-3am and then again for much of today.

This is how “early labor” is going. It’s not all dramatic-like, the way it is in the movies…where the water breaks and wooosh you are whisked to the hospital. But for us the lazy days of early labor are more like lightning on gathering clouds. We know a storm is coming… but we seem to have some time before we have to bring the laundry in.  A flat plains of Texas labor…where storms can be watched from a distance as they roll in…rather than a New York City labor where you don’t even know there’s inclement weather until you step out on your front stoop.

The point is that things are progressing. My cervix is doing what it needs to do. Our baby is enjoying her last days in the warmth, safety and quiet of my womb.  And we are here waiting…wanting to meet our baby…but recognizing that these things happen at their own pace.

We hope things are warm and dry where you are. We hope you are with friends and family who love you. We promise to let you know when the heavy rains of active labor come our way.




Waiting… December 22, 2008

Filed under: 3rd Trimizzle — katecosby @ 8:45 am

Well if you are feeling impatient for this baby to come…you are in good company.  But as my mother’s zen master neighbor says “when the fruit is ready…it will fall from the tree.”  I myself am skeptical of the fruit-falling metaphors but I have been doing a little visualization of my own lately.

So here’s the updates.

On Thursday evening mom arrived in Berkeley after a day of delayed travel.  Not too bad though…only two hours.  On Friday we moved her into her own apartment (complete with biodeisel car) courtesy of my friend Felisa and her husband Zack who are on the east coast for the holidays.  Saturday we saw the midwives and had brunch with Dina.

The midwives have given us carte blanche to go ahead and stimulate labor in any way we can.  Labor stimulation may include the following:



spicy food


sappy movies

I’ve definitely been more active in the last couple days then in my first weeks off of work.  I haven’t had too much spicy food. But I did see Nick for some very excellent accupuncture this afternoon (after a relaxing yet stimulating massage from Hannah). Tonight Elizabeth, Hannah and Annie are coming to watch “The Notebook” which I hear is really really sappy.

Beyond that we’re counting on remote prayer….and the fact that all babies come when they are damn well and ready.  Howie and I have faith that this girl will come to us at the right time and we are so excited to meet her.  So thanks for waiting this out with us everybody. We promise (cross our heart and hope to die) that you will  know as soon as we know. Unless you are clarvoyant…then you will most certainly know sooner.